Ask HN: I'm 22 and feel already depressed
I started programming at 14, computer science was my passion. I'm in my 4th year of engineering school and have a contract with my company and school since 2 years so I work as a software engineer in the financial field (in France). I still love programming but need another dimension, new breath where I could be more useful.
I'll start soon (November) the last year of my degree and of my contract but it's very mentally tough. I'm homesick, I want to leave all to go to North America and pursuit my dream, my other half is there. If I break my contract, it will be financially difficult and need to pay the last year (7.000$) even if I leave school.
I loose my mind, I don't know what to do. I took my diploma at the current level of my study I case of, but I really want to stop. In France the diploma is important but in America it's more about experiences and skills.
I currently wear a mask at work, I try to show the passion and the willingness to my coworkers and my manager.
I looking for more human connections, I do not think I will make the world better stilling in front of my computer...
Did you already be in this situation ? How did you overcome that ?
(If you have work opportunities in Montréal, QC I will take it with gratefulness !)