So I'm working on 3 problems from orbital mechanics, control theory and investment science respectively, each which is interesting in itself but each which flexes my ODE and PDE muscles.
In short, just invent problems you find engaging and then scratch away at them on planes and trains, and in all those in-between times.
If you mean the ability to solve and think critically about problems, I like a combination of "How to solve it" by Pólya (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/How_to_Solve_It) for more general ideas and regularly finding puzzles onm different topics such as the ones proposed here (https://fivethirtyeight.com/tag/the-riddler/).
For deeper mathematics, I feel like that's hard. I come back to my notes from Grad School once in a while, or try to follow proofs for topics of interests. But to be honest, most of them are a little beyond me at times. Maybe Fermat's library (https://fermatslibrary.com/) can offer some annotated reading which would be helpful?
Regardless, I wish you good luck. Please do share if you have any more good ideas.
2. Youtube (see: Professor Leonard, 3blue1brown, Gilbert Strang, etc.)
3. Books like:
https://www.amazon.com/Humongous-Book-Calculus-Problems-Book...
https://www.amazon.com/Calculus-Practice-Problems-Dummies-On...
https://www.amazon.com/Schaums-Solved-Problems-Calculus-Outl...
https://www.amazon.com/gp/slredirect/picassoRedirect.html/re...
4. And maybe not as calculus specific, but doing Project Euler problems might also be useful.
I would guess that most people comfortable with both representations would feel that standard mathematical notation is lighter and conveys the "raw idea" more directly.
Also, there are a number of people that produce calculus tutoring youtube videos. Maybe you can try that.
Unfortunately, a large percent of what we learn will eventually be forgotten due to lack of use. Most of what we learn will not be used at work. I remember spending tons of time studying calculus yet I've yet to use any of it. If ever I need to use it I will need to review it to refresh my mind but most likely I won't remember most of it.
When you take a bit more advanced class, the symbols for partial derivatives and integrals will be interspersed with other symbology and flash before your eyes like elements in a humongous matrix. You won't have time to think about stuff you learned from 1000+ page doorstop. You have to learn to think more nimbly and abstractly like a mathematician. To that end, check out "intro to math proofs" textbooks.
If by calculus you meant modern math analysis, then simply disregard the stuff above.
If you can't remember the core intuitions about calculus (what does integrating a function mean, how to use the derivative or gradient to find local minima or maxima, which functions are continuous, which of those are derivable everywhere) then if you're like me and most people I know, you need to spend more time applying calculus.
You can read stuff in fields that benefit from application of calculus to get a better feel for it (geometry if you're doing anything with curves or curved surfaces; computational geometry is also quite fun, also in most engineering fields there is some calculus to model the application of the forces, if you like building things learning to simulate real-world structures and systems can be super motivating). Build a (very small) neural network without a framework, that'll make you work at grasping the concepts of measuring small variations in the output of a function in a way that is very goal-directed.
(I used your example of calculus because I think you're talking about being an adult with a day job who can't find a use for high school math. If you did math in university and are worried about losing your skill at writing proofs, you should find a job writing proofs. There is about zero overlap between proof writing and a developer career, and proof writing is tedious and difficult to gain the focus to do on the side.)
There's also Schaums outline for Calculus
You can also try going through Art of Problem Solving Calculus (though it's much more difficult than the typical calculus text)
That seems to favour rote learning instead of actually developing or keeping core competences.
In my experience, it's the mechanical stuff that you forget most quickly without use, as opposed to the conceptual stuff.