Every time I look outside (linkedin, /cscareerquestions, HN), there are people with far more experience or qualifications. It makes me feel my ideas are all wishful thinking. That the success that I have attained here is just because "it's a shallow pond" and nothing else.
And when I look at grad programs (master); they require far more money that I have with me right now. I would love to get a master in SWE (part of the reason for going abroad), but I don't feel good enough for a scholarship/financial aid.