Thanks for your advice and your experience. I have an accountant but he doesn't speak English. I feel anxious contacting him. Realising how much he is costing me (about 3200 USD a year) is one thing that set me off.

I read in some of your past posts about how your accountant needs to fit your business. I think I made a bad choice of accountants. He works very much on paper and can't understand why I'm not going to visit clients etc. I very much feel like we're talking at cross purposes.

I've been going to counseling and I found it very helpful. I started going when I couldn't handle my past job. They gave me the advice that maybe I was more suited to working for myself than working for a company. I usually feel very good after visiting them but it quickly wears off.