It's really quite sad.
On the other hand if you can buy into something that isn't considered highly desirable by society but is very prevalent, well, you can have a really, really good time.
And you're aware of it! That's a very good first step towards fixing that!
It's a slow process and I hope I too can one day have a normal life, with someone by my side.
Your attitude is pretty good - you're open and eager to improve. Just continue working on yourself!
Actually, I've realized this myself: my male friends who are tall and muscular have had many girlfriends, and the rest are still virgins.
But think about this: our society has naturally evolved to this stage. Before, males had fights to compare who had the best genes. Nowadays, we compare that through TV and media, and individuals without good genes keep themselves from passing them just through self hate.