What's worse is that the longer you take certain psychiatric drugs, the greater the long-term damage it can possibly cause to almost disability. It's being between a rock and a hard place.

I've taken Abilify, Wellbutrin, Seroquel, and a number of other drugs. The biggest problem when you enter the psychiatric system is you go through pill roulette. You take a drug, try it, see what works, and keep trying till you find what works. Even worse is that I entered the system in high school which is a tumultuous developmental period.

One sad personal story is that a psychiatrist started me on a developmental drug. A drug that was approved for other problems but was "in development" for other uses. I tried it and it was worse than Seroquel. Seroquel, if I missed a dose, I couldn't sleep. For this new drug, if I missed a dose, I had a panic attack and if I took it, I would fall asleep. So if I was out too long, let's say traveling, I had to choose between a panic attack or falling asleep.

When I confronted my psychiatrist about this problem, instead of taking me off the drug, he prescribed me medication for panic attacks.