Ah ok. In your comments on this page, you are mostly talking about your own lack of satisfaction in programming as a career. Maybe that's infecting your feeling about the whole computery enterprise.

Personally, I've been an amateur programmer for 35+ years, I've always loved it. I read about stuff, then write a program to do it, and experiment with my own ideas, from fractals to neural nets, anything.

I started a computer science degree once, so I could get programming work I guess. But I went to a programmer friend's place of work - he was working on the accounts software for some company - and it was all so awfully depressing I quit my course. Maybe most programmers' work is like that, I don't know.