I totally agree with you and have been on a similar mental journey on the last few years. I used to read phenomenal amounts.
But I’ve found myself very disillusioned by the reading of books, to the point that I don’t actually do much of it anymore.
I’m too distracted by the fact that it seems pointless. Or I’m dispirited by the thought that to make it not be pointless requires large amounts of school-like study (notes, self testing, regular revision etc.)
I’m not sure what to do about this. I don’t think not reading is a viable life strategy, I just don’t quite get it right now.