This thread helps confirm my long term desire to self terminate. I didn’t have much insight into how a bpd looks from both sides but it’s clear to me that having a psychiatric disorder can put someone in a whole different universe from others despite appearances.
If someone believes others are out to get them, if they’re sensitive, or whatever behaviors they manifest, who is anyone to say what they feel is right or wrong? Their behaviors may not fit in with society at large, but nobody can speak to their perceptions.
The world is complicated now and people on average have a more intricate social universe than ever before. I’m sad to say that I couldn’t find my place in human society. Seeing where I am at personally relative to what I’ve learned from this thread is very painful.
Wishing for the best for everyone here. Nobody should have to suffer and it’s commendable that so many fight the good fight. Be well.