You should talk to a specialist about this, not HN.
I've commented many times on HN how much I enjoy seeing a therapist once every two weeks just to rediscover the emotional side of my being and balance out the uber-logicalness of my life.
If you see a therapist do be clear that they are not going to give you the answers, only give you a safe place to talk out the issue. My point is you might be better off doing that with parents, friends, partner (romantic, not business), etc if you have them around you. They know you better and may be more familiar with the specifics of the situation.
EDIT: if you are in SF and want a recommendation, my email is in my profile.