Congrats on making it out as well.
I wrote the book thinking about the people I could be helping, but I don't publish it because I finally feel "free." I'm not sure if it's an irrational fear, or something I need therapy for, but the idea of going back to how I felt is something that I'm not ready for right now.
Quick story for emphasis:
In 2011, just as my company was off the ground, I found out I had a warrant for my arrest. When you're on probation and you are convicted of another crime, you serve length of probation + new crime. In my case even though I was not on active probation, my unsupervised probation cited that I would serve 10 years plus new crime.
The people who know me today would describe me as very stable and light-hearted/funny. When I got that warrant notice, I had a complete meltdown. I left work, physically ran to my apartment, and locked myself away. I was informed on a Friday, so my attorney couldn't get back to me until Monday with all the information as to why I was being warranted.
The reason? It turns out the State that I moved away from had lost all the records of me paying my restitution.
Lucky for me, I'd been carrying those receipts around for nearly 10 years at that point. I photocopied every single one of them and a week later, the warrant was revoked.
I lived in chaos after prison for years, and in fear for more than 10 years. I just need a bit more time to heal up before I'm ready.
I'm away from SF (where I typically live) for a few more months, but I'll reach out when I'm back.