I haven't been consuming alcohol for a while now, I think the last was during some world cup match.I don't necessarily lose control, but I guess I am a sad drunk.My thoughts do get darker when I have alcohol in my system.

I am in shape, and do exercise regularly. I don't think it makes a difference in my case.

Thanks for the links, and comments. I don't usually have a cheerful face, but yesterday I tried to keep a forced smile for the most part, because I read some literature that suggested it can improve how an individual feels. It hasn't really been useful.

I plan on seeing a doctor, but I don't have an appointment till this Tuesday.