I drink a lot of coffee. I'm a very in the moment person, meditate regularly, enjoy and live in the moment, etc.
This is an approach to life thing that is quite orthogonal to whether you drink coffee or not.
In conversations like these too often people promote a quick fix type of thing. "I stopped {X} and gained {Y}!", when really there was no causative relationship, and {X} was just a one of many lifestyle changes.
Though, to be fair, caffeine is a very strong stimulant. So likely, when you stop using it, things will change for you.
I do a coffee fast (for months) every so often. I suggest you try it, we can share more anecdotes when you're on the other side.
I think self-awareness plays a very strong role here. If you're addicted to caffeine, as many are, you know how it makes you feel. Some choose to ignore the effects, others also choose to ignore them...
Likely addiction to anything, if broken for a time, will yield results that one can measure against.
And yes, stopping addiction is a quick fix.
And I disagree that they're orthogonal. There's definitely some correlation between what you consume and your state of mind and awareness. (Don't believe me? Eat a handful of chillies) It is why the Buddhist monks live such a moderate lifestyle, would recommend chefs table episode 1 of the latest season.
Great. I was replying to someone else who took your statement to mean that stopping coffee == enlightenment.
I'm not looking for an argument, but far too often on here people look for, or push, an easy fix for larger problems. "I started working at a standing desk and now I'm a 10x programmer", "I stopped watching TV and now I'm a great artist", etc. But in reality the causation was "I realized I needed to make change, and for now at least things are different but here's some proxy symbolic thing". I realized that I needed to live healthier, and in doing so wore gym shorts more often, so gym shorts make you healthier.
Regarding the Buddhist monks, be wary clutching onto something they did given the mysticism, but it's notable that monks drink tea (and, in many cases, coffee), and their precepts are against intoxicants like alcohol. And some of the things they avoided were things like onions and garlic, which were believed to make them aroused.
You roast your own beans at home ? How expensive of a setup does that require ?
I think this part hasn't been written of enough. How much smoke does coffee roasting create? Is it almost like a barbecue?
When you next make a cup, try to tease out exactly what it is that you enjoy about making it. What is it about that experience that makes it enjoyable?
Why not? Lots of people enjoy making food, even food they're not going to eat. Why would making a drink be that different?
Ritual itself can be very satisfying. I've taken apart also in Ethiopian coffee making, which is an awesome process. Beans get roasted on the spot and then brewed into coffee, and everyone gets there small cups of the brew, in decreasing concentration. It's a precise ritual, and at the same time very social. It's great!