Again, OP is not talking about when he wakes up.
>Sativa brings you up with energy
Like a stimulant. This is not useful for OP.
Lumping all antidepressants together and saying they cause more problems than they solve is generalizing too much. Which ones cause problems, and for which people? The most common type is SSRIs, but if OP does not metabolize folic acid properly, it is off the table. I will concede that tricyclic antidepressants have more side effects, but SSRI use is relatively common, at 10% (https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/the-rise-of-all-p...). That is compared to 7-13% of adults who report cannabis use (http://www.gallup.com/poll/194195/adults-say-smoke-marijuana...).
Speaking from personal experience, antidepressant has made all the difference for me, in terms of energy. Unrelated, I use atomoxetine for focus throughout the day. As it is not a stimulant, there is no crash or feeling tired in the evening hours. Its levels are consistent throughout the day, and I code at all times of day with little fluctuation, in terms of motivation.