Perhaps I've been too deep down the philosophical/metaphysical rabbit hole, but AFAIK there's only three options:
1) Deep down (past the turtles-all-the-way-deep) there's only chaos
2) <strike> Free will and alternative options exist</strike>
3) It's only predetermined order past the turtles.
And 2 is somehow impossibly situated on the razors' edge where 1 and 3 intersect, science is as yet undecided if 1 or 3, but our macro scale world appears to be 3.'I' really 'want' to be convinced of 2, but it's something 'I' lost a long time ago, anyone care to convince me? These days 'I' find some comfort in 1. If it 'turns' out to be 3 'I'll' 'be' very sad indeed :(
Long story short: There's nothing to chose, either it's all been decided already, and your 'thoughts' are nothing but atoms and other things rattling around, generating the illusion of your conciousness, or there's only chaos and we're (also) never 'making' any choices, they are all just rolls of the dice.