I just don't "get" what is being told to me when it's in the context of math-notation. As a result I do horrible in math classes in college. The only thing that was taught with a CS-Style notation was approximating using Newton's method. After I saw that it made sense, it was just a recursive method that zeroed in on that location.
Very little aside from that in my calc 1 class made sense. Probably limits, but that's it really. It didn't click as well.
I'd like to get to the point where I understand math concepts as well as I do most of the CS but I just think that's impossible at this point. It seems to be very "this is our garden, you stay in yours".
Also, would you be interested in being paid to read a chapter or two and provide feedback?
Just don't let the notation get in the way of reaching clarity on the ideas.
If you read through my comment history you will find me arguing with many mathematicians who think that math is just inherently harder and I must not understand it because I'm not smart enough. I think that the concepts and basic building blocks seem simple when explained outside the context of the current notation used.
You can see a perfectly prime example of this here: https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=12991581
Read through my comments to see how I feel.
I'd also like to be clear. I'm not saying math is easy, I'm just saying that it can't be impossible for my peasant brain to not be smart enough to understand the concepts of what's going on. I mean it's not Greek.... well... it currently is but it doesn't need to be!
It’s like if you’re interested in 19th century piano music, but all your experience with reading music is in the form of guitar tablature, then you’re going to have a tough time with your study. You could conceivably find top-down videos of someone playing some of the music you care about, or convince someone to translate some parts of it into guitar tablature. But it would be a better use of your time to just learn to read standard music notation.
I'm a decent programmer, maybe above average, and I know I could understand this stuff if I found the right resources and put in the time, but I'm not sure what value it can provide me at this point.
My blog, on the other hand, tends to be more like "Here's an algorithm/theorem you can only find in research papers or graduate textbooks, proved, explained, and implemented." If you don't know proofs, most of my blog posts are too much too fast.
My book is trying to be in between the two. You have seen logarithms before and you know (or can look up) what similar triangles are. However, reading a typical math book is immediately too fast, the notation is too foreign, and the proofs seem to leave out a lot. My goal is to bring the reader in the fold w.r.t. notation and mindset and expectations (using programming analogies and leaning on the concepts you already understand well), showcase impressive applications in Python at the end of every chapter, and survey different areas of math relevant for software applications like machine learning and crypto.
I would be interested to know more about what specific topics you find difficult, maybe using Kalid's book as a reference?
Have you looked at these two? It might help your writing process to find what readers of those books found confusing or frustrating in the presentation.