My hat goes off to you for working so hard and being so dedicated. It sounds like you had an awful day, and I'm sorry.
Please dont take this as criticism, because I respect everything you do. But consider this:
> I don't get paid a dime extra for being there 18 hours
Why do you have to be there for 18 hours ? What if medical school weren't so difficult to get into, that there were enough doctors for each of you to work 4 hour shifts ? You could then do 4 hours of intense-pressure, saving lives. An hour lunch break, return and do 4 hours of paperwork/damage control, etc. Then go home and relax like everyone else ?
For the amount of money those patients are being charged ($10k+ per night in ICU), there's adequate money going around to hire 5 more of you to allow 6 separate 4-hr shifts of trauma coverage.
I dont know where the bottleneck is. But I'm concerned that there's an artificial scarcity somewhere, perhaps in medical school. Perhaps in the board certification. Maybe there shouldn't be a 15-year educational requirement ? Maybe a nurse with 6 years' experience could be qualified for a "micro-practice" in a limited capacity ? No, not a PA (see, now we're dealing with status/prestige ), a doctor, responsible for pt's for 4 hours/day.
I dont know where the problem is, but maybe we are just over-regulated ? We put so much care into making sure the wrong people dont get in, that now we're overworking those who do get in. In that 18 hour shift you described, do you really think you are as alert at the end of the day as you were that morning ? Overworking people undoubtedly leads to lower quality, and a there has to be a breaking point where it's going to be better to let more people in than it is to burn out the few people who do make it past the barriers.