Once you get old enough your doctor can't really say no.

From asthmatic to asthmatic, I never liked the slightest thing about smoking. Maybe the shape .. that's it. Last year I had a health accident, cardiovascular and lung in deep trouble, and for some reason, all of a sudden I started having strong smoking envy. Considering I avoided smoking because of asthma, being in lower health condition made these "cravings" somehow absurd. But there was something smoking represented: inhaling a gas that made your mind peaceful, just like proper breathing does, and my health deprived me of this, so smoking felt like the only substitute.