I finally realized I was depressed when I couldn't remember a time I wasn't angry. I didn't know that constant irritation and low-level anger are also depression symptoms. I remembered trouble sleeping and no energy and sadness, but "anger" was new to me. When I started getting pissed at other drivers and couldn't be patient with my son, my wife said, "Are you okay?"

I wasn't. I was depressed. I started taking medication and I slowly got better. I still had a lot of the mental habits of depression ("How long has it been since I've showered?" and "Why aren't I telling my friends what I'm going through?") but I worked on those. And I asked for help, from everyone who loved me. And they helped a lot. Who knew! ( =