Sorry, reposting. Made a mistake in the submission.
Think of an app or service idea that will help people and make you money.
The only thing you need to do is this. Then, once you figure it out, figure out how to build it, or have others help you build it.
This will take care of your income. Stop with worrying about letting your parents down or getting your ego bruised.
Everything will be ok. You sound like you're dealing with a mental illness. There are millions and millions of people with similar issues. It is not the end of the world. You can cope and thrive despite it. Eat healthy, exercise, start loving yourself and giving thanks to the universe and anyone you can. If you read these words know that if you follow these simple steps you'll be better than ok.
I'm rooting for you. D