Go to war. You will have lot of experience and memories. It is easiest way to escape the cycle.
> you can put up with almost any amount of bullsh*t.
It is not true. Good people are good, bad are bad, even at war. War just proves who is who.
Yep, thinking is changing from libertarian to utilitarian style, because you cannot help to all, and will need to chose what to protect, which lives to save, etc.