The fact big companies in SV have been caught in a no poaching pact gives an indication of how workers are considered by the owners: just lemons to be pressed. They even strip you from your moral and patrimonial rights on any of your inventions in exchange for some ridiculous equities that give them fiscal advantages. And they call it "advantage". For whom? You do the valuable original part of the job.

In exchange, like a kid you have free lolipops and you have a nice kindergarten kind of ambiance, where immaturity and attitude prevails. You are distracted from thinking.

I faced your situation. I find modern IT mildly innovative nowadays and promises made at hiring often never held, IT culture often toxic. Especially the lack of critical thinking.

Take some vacations. Whatever you plan next. You may have good reasons to be disillusioned. (or none, the thinking is up to you)

Sometime just enjoying life is the right solution to a lot of problems. Because, fuck the IT. Your life and the search for your own happiness matters more than anything else.

By being honest, you are proving to be mature: trust yourself.

EDIT: Ask HN: How happy are you working as a programmer? https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=11009956