There's an idea in my mind I've been trying to make happen. I started learning programming when I was 11 to build it. I've tried numerous times, each time, for a lack of skill it was beyond reach. It's only this year, 15 years later, I feel like I have the knowhow and resources to complete it. It's on this path that I've been following for the last decade and a half, I've gotten into this software engineering career, I met my girlfriend in the office building where I work, I've become best friends with a fellow programmer for the past 10 years, and I find a kind of peace and contentment every time I find myself taking steps to actively pursue this idea. I never knew, never thought about and still don't know whether achieving the idea will make me money, make me more attractive to the opposite sex, or help me become popular and make new friends, but looking back in hindsight, it's because of moments when I didn't think about these "things", when the idea is consuming me and I can't help but try to work on, that I have all these things, today. And it's when I've temporarily given up on my idea to pursue these "things", I lose them.
Do I have the idea, or does the idea have me?