You picked a really bad time. That aside, if you end up in NL let me know and I'll help you in any way that I can, but make sure you end things on as good a note as you can, especially with your wife (and I really hope you don't have children). And remember one thing, you can leave everything behind, but you can't leave yourself behind and some of those things that you dislike will end up mysteriously packed in your luggage, it sounds very much like you want to get out of your life, not just your country.