this resonates with me... I found myself in a series of bad incidents that pushed me towards escaping with alcohol. then due to my compulsive nature, it spun out of control and I ended up in rehab etc and took 2 years to pull back out. when it all started I had run out of money, was extremely lonely (needed therapy but didn't even know how to get it then), and had lost my job etc. it caused me to self-destruct at age 29 because my vision for life suddenly seemed lost to me. now I'm 32 with s great job, sober, stable, and life is great.